Today was such an amazing day for me. Today was the day I was surrounded by some of my closest friends as we tried on dresses for my wedding at David's Bridal. My husband and I decided that a wedding was necessary because our union with God and each other is worth celebrating.So today, I truly was overwhelmed by emotions as I tried on my first wedding dress. This was a very sentimental occasion because unlike so many of my friends I never got to experience prom or graduating from high school and sharing memories with my senior class because I had my oldest daughter at 16 and became a mother and college student all in the same year after she was born. Instead of memories of high school my memories where of Krystian’s first tooth, first time crawling and every other milestone in her little life I cherish to this day.
The picture below is of me trying not to cry. I was surrounded by people I love, I’’m marrying the man I love, and that dress was a symbol. You know how they say before you die your flashes before your eyes? When I put on this dress and saw myself it was like all of my memories of all the toxic relationships, the relationships that I was in outside of God’s will, and even the ones that helped me to grow flashed through my head and I couldn’t help but be grateful and humbled because I knew God was preparing me for this very moment. I couldn’t help but to tell my Father thank you. Trying on wedding dresses today was symbolic of a new beginning. A new beginning of a new life as one with someone else, but also a new beginning with the same God who never left me when I felt alone. The wedding dress made me realize just how important weddings are. It’s a union.Just as the reference of the church being the bride of Christ; it reveals the same importance when two become husband and wife. When that veil was placed on my head I knew that was symbolic of my covering from the rest of the world and me given security under my husbands protection. When I put on that white/ ivory dress over my head all of the anxiety I previously had over wondering if I would be a good wife, fear of being hurt by my husband, and the stress of planning a wedding on a frugal budget disappeared. I truly felt like God is giving me a new beginning with two main characters in the story instead of one and I became extremely emotional. Im looking for ward to this new journey, but even more important I just thank God for the growth to be appreciative, humbled, and prepared for it. xoxo, Krystale Jane’l
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