It's been 3 weeks since my last day on my job. It took me a week to get acclimated to being at home and working down the hall from my bedroom, and it took the other two weeks for my husband to understand that I work from home...I'm not a housewife.
In less than a month my whole vibe is different. I finally got the pink and blonde hair I have always wanted and as always, God keeps showing me just when I have it figured out ...I don't. One of the things that have literally had me terrified is completing my memoir. It's hard to tell your story as it has been on several occasions in ministry, but it is even harder to not only write your story, but to pour your heart out on paper. Let me tell you, I have ran from writing this book. Now, I'm procrastinating writing some of the most painful times in my life.I wanted to make sure i heard God clearly...and as always he gave me sign after sign that now was the time to write. The more I find myself attempting to be more obedient is the very moment I realize I am being disobedient. At first i blamed writer's block when clearly it wasn't. Just like any other book I could hear myself writing the chapter...but this time I refused to type. I'm looking at so many of my associates living their dreams doing what the love but now....Im treating my gift as some unwanted guest at the family dinner. Ive used my job as an ESL teacher as a distraction, but just like with my real job God showed me stop depending on these checks that men are signing when i am the source of everything. You have learned to trust me with your finances...trust me with your life. God says trust him....I say...I'm getting easy money from home....The day of payday from my main ESL companies...we get an emall that the Typhoon Lukima
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